Thursday, March 7, 2019

Winter Blues

Good Morning!!!!

It feels like it has been forever since I have done a legit blog post. Life has been super crazy busy. Some things I will talk about others I am not ready to even fathom yet. There has been a lot of happy moments along with loss that has left me reeling.

It all became so overwhelming and I slipped backwards back into my depression. I went to my doctor and got back on my antidepressants. And I am totally okay with it. My mental health is one of the most important things that I need to take care of. Especially for my babies, they deserve their mama to be mentally healthy for them.

I might eventually write it all out but for now I just felt the need to write up a blog post, especially for all you loyal blog followers. I am so glad you all have stuck around the last few years. Especially with how inactive I have been. But you all, postpartum depression, anxiety, and depression in general is no joke. I have suffered alone (well not totally those in my real day to day life have been super supportive) – and I am slowly clawing my way out of it.

Also, to switch topics, can we talk about this crazy snow we have had? It is March! In my entire life, I have never seen this much snow during this time of the year. Usually I am seeing the Earth come back to life, picking out my plants to put into my garden.

This ish is crazy!

Anyway!!!! Thank you for being here and being so supportive! I am off to pick up my babies from pre-k and spend the rest of the day with them.
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Sunday, March 3, 2019

Only Ever You


He’s the hot-as-sin rocker hiding a secret that would devastate his fans. She’s the only girl he’s ever loved, but keeping her safe means he had to walk away…

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My entire life is a lie, propelled by one wrong decision that altered my fate.
If fans knew the truth, they’d run away screaming. But all they see is Ryder Stone, moody guitarist and lead singer of Torment, and a potential notch on their bedpost.
Only two people know who I really am. My manager has a vested interest in keeping my secret, and the girl I was forced to leave behind doesn’t even know the true extent of my shame.
Losing Zeta is both my biggest regret and my proudest moment. But she was the glue keeping me together, and I’m struggling to survive without her. Especially when the demons from my past continue to haunt me and the threat of disclosure is ever present.
When she reappears in my life, this time, I’m too weak to push her away.
Her love has the power to save me.
Mine has the power to destroy her.
I’ve worked hard to forget my past. To rise above my messed-up childhood and make something of myself; however, there’s no forgetting him.
Ryder’s gorgeous face and drool-worthy body are plastered over tabloids and TV screens, reminding me I’m still in love with the boy who captured my heart in juvie.
When he failed me, I thought I’d never again experience such heart-crushing pain. But watching him fall out of clubs with a succession of different girls renews the agony, resurrecting countless unanswered questions.
Now my boss has sent me to interview him. It’s a massive scoop for the magazine, and turning it down would kill my career. So, I delude myself into thinking I can handle this.
Perhaps this is the closure I need to finally move on.
Except I’m terrified nothing has changed and one look into those soulful eyes will suck me in again.
Ryder almost destroyed me last time. This time, he could ruin me forever.
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He kisses the top of my head. “I can admit to myself now that I was falling into a dark hole again. Recently, I’d been partying too hard, and slipping back into my old ways, but I told myself I had it under control. These last few weeks have helped enormously. Being back in the Hamptons house has always been my salvation. I keep to myself, bury myself in the music, and avoid all other temptations. I never invite people back to my house. It’s my only sanctuary. My only privacy. And having you back in my life has given me purpose. Given me a reason to clean up my act.” He tilts my face up to his. “Because I want to be the kind of man you deserve.” “You already are.” I stretch up and kiss his lips. “I’m broken, babe, and a part of me always will be.” He looks so unbearably sad, and I want to erase all trace of sorrow from his face. “I’m broken too, Ryder. Maybe that’s why it works between us.”
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Wednesday, January 9, 2019

Late Night Insomnia Ramblings

I am so unbelievably tired. My insomnia — or whatever is going on right now — is kicking my butt. I managed 5 and a half hours of sleep last night. According to my Fitbit I spent 11% of that awake, 63% in light sleep, 12% in REM, and 21% in deep sleep. With how much light and deep sleep I got, you’d think I was well rested. Instead I feel run down and sluggish. 

I’m fighting falling asleep right now because I don’t like napping. I always feel worse after a nap, but I think today I will end up succumbing to it. 

I won’t take a sleep aide because they do not work for me. I have tried them in the past and they either aggravated my insomnia and made it worse — or  I’d fall asleep and sleep through every alarm I had and sleep the day away AND feel like I had a hangover from the amount of sleep I got. 

There is just no way I can do that with small children to take care of. 
I am supposed to go in on the 28TH to see a new doctor (mine left the practice over the holiday). With all my health issues (PCOS and Lynch Syndrome) I have to have a doctor. Technically I don’t need to find one until May,  but this way, I can “shop” around for a doctor I will like and trust. 

Also I don’t do change well. I hate when things change. I’ve had the same doctor since we moved up her in 2007. She knows who I am, who my kids are, and even though I don’t go in very often I was never treated like patient X. So this is bitter sweet for me. 

Although with my insomnia rearing it’s ugly head, I really need to find a doctor I can trust and feel comfortable with so we can come up with a game plan to combat this. 

If you have any tips or tricks to help combat this, I’d great appreciate it. I’m willing to try anything once — mainly because you never know what works for you unless you at least try it.