The Diagnosis

I took a blogging break. I did pop in here and there and apologize for the absence but to be honest life has been busy. I have been hanging out with my son a lot and dealing with the diagnosis I have waited 7 years to hear.  I have also resumed going back to work. 

Yup this mama is no longer a SAHM. 

Back to my diagnosis:

I have… PCOS. 

I for the last 7 years I had wondered what was wrong with me. In 2007 I was in a hit and run car accident. At the time of this accident I weighed 125lbs. Within 7 months of the accident I weighed 200lbs. Every doctor I had been too said that the weight gain was due to the steroid they put me on to help heal my shoulder and not to have to do surgery.

(me 9 years ago) 

They told me the shot had given me had had a bad reaction to my birth control. So they took me off of birth control. I never went back for another shot because I was afraid I'd gain more weight. 

For 7 years I tried every diet known to man and worked out at the gym like a crazy person only to gain more weight. I finally just stopped doing everything I was doing because nothing was working and the doctors could not tell me what was happening. Well 6 years later I got pregnant with Kaileb and my midwife told me she thought I might have PCOS. 

After doing some research I realized a lot (not all) of the symptoms I had I have been having for years prior to the car accident.

Finally when Kaileb was 7 months old I was able to get tested (because I was only able to breastfeed for 3 weeks before my supply dried up, if I had still been breast feeding I would have had to wait till I was done). I had blood tests done to check my hormone levels and blood sugar levels, I also had an internal ultra sound done to measure my uterus and ovaries. All three of these tests came back in the PCOS range. 

Today I am 234lbs and I am on Metformin. I have been on Metformin for about a month now and I lost 5lbs while using it. I think it is helping get my insulin resistance under control (I should add that when I was in high school I was told I had hypoglycemia). 

Which is a big step in the right direction. But it is not the only thing I am doing to help control my PCOS. I am slowly changing my diet and trying to have a more positive outlook of my body and life.

I am not a big believer in quick fixes. So I am taking it slow. In the last 4 years I have gotten into some really bad habits. I know myself well enough that if I go hard I will relapse and crave all the crap I should not have. So I am slowly getting rid of the crud in my diet and substituting it for better whole/organic foods and drinks.

I feel relieved that I finally have an answer. I am also sad/depressed over the answer I waited so long to hear. I was honestly hoping that it was just me. That I was not dieting the right way or that I was just fat and lazy (even though I know better). 

(me one week ago)

I feel empowered because I now know what I have to do. I know that this is a lifestyle change. That I cannot just sweep this under the rug and forget about it. I am slowly taking my life back and am so happy that my family is being very understanding. When I come and visit they try to have things there that are healthier for me to eat. I know my Dad is relieved to finally know why his baby girl went from being in the best shape of her life to being 100lbs over weight in a matter of months.

Anyway this is becoming really long. I hope that you will join me on my PCOS journey as you have with every aspect of my life so far since I began this blog. Thank you for being so understanding and being such loyal readers!

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