Friday, February 22, 2013

Worst Night Ever

Last night we spent the night in the ER.

Last night was probably the worst night I have every had to deal with since becoming a mommy. 

Kai was fine all day long. We went to visit a friend and he played with her daughter while we talked and laughed. She put her daughter to bed and I stayed and let Kai play a little bit longer as it was a little to early for him to go to bed. That and I had hoped that he would fall asleep in the car on the ride home so I could get him out and transfer him to bed right away.

Obviously that is not what happened. Throughout the day he drank and ate like normal, except he had 4 dirty diapers - each one getting a little more runny. I honestly didn't think anything of it as he has been teething and that seems to be the norm for him. 

As I was getting him ready to go he coughed and spit up a little bit - again normal. Then he looked at me and  threw up all over me and him. Drenching us both. I got us undressed (my sweater and him stripped down to his diaper) and checked his temp just to make sure. It was 97 degrees. My friend went to find a pair of pj's  that he could fit into of her daughters. When she found them and came back to help me load him in the car (I had left some stuff there the night before) he started throwing up again. This time more chunky. So we cleaned him and I back up and took his temp again. This time it was 98 degrees. 

I got him dressed and as I was leaving he threw up again. So we checked his temperature one more time. it was 96 degrees. I managed to not get any of it on us. 

This is where it gets scary.

I turn him around and start to wipe his face when he looks at me, sighs, and then passes out. I looked at my friend and we get him in the car. I decide it is time to get him to the hospital. Mind you this all happened in a 10 minute time frame.

On the way there I start calling my husband and he is not answering. My friend calls me to tell me she called the ER and let them know I was 20 minutes out (she lives in the boonies). I ask her to keep trying my husband so I can drive.

I am trying so hard not to speed even though I am scared and Kai hasn't woken up yet. So I call my neighbor and woke her up to see if Matt's jeep is parked in our drive way and if it is if she could let him know whats going on and to meet me at the hospital.

5 minutes later he calls me and I tell him what happened and to grab extra pj's and a sweater for me. As I was in only a tank top. It was kind of cold out. The entire drive there I did between 5 and 10 miles over the speed limit. I felt like I was going soooo slow. The cops in that part of town would waste time and give me a ticket then escort me to the hospital.  It would have been precious time wasted.

I pull into the hospital just as my hubby did. Got Kai out and ran into the ER where he finally came to just to throw up again.

He is still not running a temperature, but he is lethargic and not at all like himself. 

They take us to a room immediately instead of checking us in. They check him out and give him some zolfran (which he threw up 5 minutes later). I held him as he slept. 

Eventually they decided that it was just a general viral infection and we could go home. So we went home where he slept all night long. I kept checking on him and got barely any sleep.

Thankfully I have an amazing husband who took over this morning and let me sleep a few hours.

Kai has taken a lot of naps today and definitely has the runs. Which means diaper rash from hell is here also. He is on a liquid diet (his choice). Although he did steal my ritz cracker tonight before he went to bed. We are on the mend.

Hopefully we do not have another night like this again.


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Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Featured on Birth Without Fear

My birth story is being featured on Birth Without Fear today! 

Go check it out!

4 Day's Before giving Birth to Kai


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Sunday, February 17, 2013

11 Things Meme

1. What is your #1 favorite beauty product?
Mary Kay hands down. I love their products. Next would be anything from MAC.

2. If you could only eat 1 dinner for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Chinese Food! Especially Fried rice, chow mein, general tso and pork slices. Yum!

3. What is/was your strongest subject in school?
English and Art were my strongest subjects when I went to school.

4. What was the best vacation you've been on?
When the hubby and I went to Disney Land. It really is the most magickal place on earth.

5. Celebrity crush?
Drew Barrymore. That lady is gorgeous!

6. What do you order at Starbucks the most?
I only go to Starbucks during the fall/winter season. Pumpkin Spice Latte and Peppermint Mocha's are amazing!

7. What is your favorite social media site?
Instagram. Love seeing all the pictures and feeling like I get to know my IG peeps better.

8. If you could ban one thing from the world what would it be and why?
Pollution. Seriously how hard is it to throw your trash away or even recycle?

9. If you could automatically know one language that you don't already, what would it be?
Gaelic. It is a beautiful forgotten language.

10. Have you ever bought something off of an infomercial?
Nope. But I have bought something from the "As Seen on TV" section in Target.

11. What did you want to be when you grew up when you were little?
I wanted to be a lawyer. I held on to that dream up until I took a paralegal class. I quickly realized it was not for me.

My Questions:
1. What is one favorite childhood memory?
2. Favorite guilty pleasure?
3. If you could swap places with anyone who would it be?
4. Favorite Book or Genre to read?
5. List 5 items on your bucket list.
6. What is your morning routine?
7. Sweet, salty, spicy or a combination of those foods?
8. Favorite movie or show to watch?
9. Outside or inside activities?
10. Are you a morning or night person?
11. Share a favorite photo you've taken in the last year.
I tag everyone to play along! Thanks Grace from grace loves the beatles  and Chelsy from The Paper Mama for the open tag!  

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Tuesday, February 12, 2013


I am currently:

Wondering: If we are ever going to get ahead. I want to go back to work but it is just not feasible which how expensive childcare is. It is such a backwards and sad world when the cost of daycare is more expensive than being a SAHM.

Loathing: Teething. We are working on tooth number 7 and 8. I can not wait for them to come in. I really hate seeing my poor baby suffer from the pain of teething.

Cooking: Shrimp Louie. Yum. Possibly the best salad ever.

Reading: The Fallen Star. I have only been able to read a page or two of it so the jury is still out.  I’ll let you know more about it once I finish reading it.
Listening: Bones. I love this show. 



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Monday, February 11, 2013

Doing It Right?

Being a mom is hard. Scratch that being a parent is hard. I am constantly worrying about him. I worry that:

I am not spending enough time with him (even though I am with him 24/7)

That he is not eating enough.

That he is eating too much.

That he doesn’t get enough play time.

That he sleeps too much or not enough.

The list can go on and on…

I wonder if I am a good parent.

These things constantly run through my head and so much more. I am sure every new and seasoned parent feels this way. I read on my facebook statuses, in other blogs, on twitter and I hear it voiced constantly.

In the last 9.5 months that I have been a parent I have probably only blogged about the good stuff about being a parent. Because you all know that being a first time parent your kid is the most amazing thing ever!

What I have not blogged about is the sleepless night, the crying and wanting to pull my hair out because omghewillnotstopcryingwhatamIdoingwrong…. Yeah those nights and days where you just want to go hide in your bedroom under your blankets crying the ugly cry. Or those days where you think that it might be better if they put you in a straight jacket and locked you away in that padded room because he is teething so badly and is so cranky that you feel like you are losing your mind.

On the flip side there are days where it is all peaches and cream. Where he is the best baby in the world and you get rewarded with cuddle time and baby kisses. You get to see him play and explore his little world and your heart just swells because it can not possibly contain this much love for one human being.

The only reason I know I am doing it right is that little baby boy I am raising smiles every time he sees me. He gets so excited that he bounces up and down with the biggest smile you've ever seen on his face. He hugs me every time I pick him up and gives me those sweet baby kisses.

For all my worry about being a good parent or not it goes out the window when he does this. So bring on the bad days and bring on the good days. As long as he is happy and healthy and learning like he should be then that is all that really matters right?


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Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Motherhood and Bad Blogging

Oh my gosh! My poor little blog! Life as a mom is so busy! Please tell me how some of you ladies manage to blog so much with a little one? I am spending so much time with Kai during the day that by the time he goes down at night I snuggle up next to my handsome hubby on the couch and relax for an hour before I go to bed myself.

Other nights my insomnia hits so bad that I can not sleep. Those are the nights that I should really try to knock out a weeks worth of blog posts... but it is all I can do is veg out on the couch and get a few hours of baby free/me time. It is so rare that I get a moment to myself anymore that I sometimes feel greedy. 

Greedy for a moment of quiet. A moment of peace to relax or focus on me for a few hours. In those hours I meditate, paint, or lay down on the couch and have a Merlin or Lost Girl marathon because well that is all I can muster up doing at the time.

Besides being the worlds worst blogger, I did manage a baby free day. I went to The Valley and visited with my sister. Since our birthday's are only 8 days apart I took her to Soul Seekers and we got our lips pierced! 

What do you think? I love it!

 And baby boy got to spend a much needed father and son day with his daddy.


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