Wednesday, November 30, 2011

wordless wednesday [sort of]

I thought this was super cute. My dear husband and Jinxie watching tv together.

PS. Don't mind the crappy cell phone pic!

and then, she {snapped}

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

The Modified Dolls

I work with an amazing group of girls who do monthly charites. Here is a list of what charities we do each month:

December: Toys for Tots

January: Alzheimer's Prevention(Naughty New Year you will want to remember!)

February: Women Thrive and National Aids Awareness

March: Eating Disorders (National Eating Disorders Association

April: Autism Speaks



July: Pinups for Soldiers

August: Leukemia and Lymphoma

September: Ear (children's music charity)

October: Learning Disabilities Awareness

November: Feeding America Or Feeding Your area if you are located In another place! Food Bank Charities basically!

December: Make a Wish Foundation

Their Facebook Page

If this is something you'd be interested in come check us out and fill out an application to become part of an amazing group of girls.

Friday, November 25, 2011

Black Friday

So I am staying in today and avoiding the holiday madness out there that is Black Friday shopping. For all my friends and family out there braving those holiday sales, good luck and be safe!

As for my Thanksgiving, I had my family come up. It was so nice to have them up. We all cooked dinner and watch football and movies. Lots of laughter and joy went on in my house yesterday. It was so nice. I will be posting pictures up from it tomorrow or Monday depending on how busy this weekend gets. So until then, thanks for reading!

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Weight Gain Fears

Now that I am pregnant, I am trying not to gain too much weight other than what is acceptable for my height and size. I know I am already overweight and from what I have been reading that does not give me much wiggle room.  Seriously I am afraid to look at the scale. I really do not want to see it clime. Since I am using a midwife I have to keep track of my own weight so I know that when I wake up tomorrow it is time to see how much I have gained. I know that I should not be complaining but my weight is something that I have battled long and hard with.

Growing up I weighed 120lbs and was in the best shape of my life. Although in the summer I would gain 5lbs. That weight gain would make my Grandmother put me on a diet because I was getting to fat. As soon as school started and sports got back into full swing I would lose it. Although there’s the rub, my Grandma would then say that I am too skinny and put me on another diet to gain weight. She always thought I was bulimic or anorexic and would threaten hospital stays if I didn’t gain/lose weight.

Well, when I moved out and got on birth control my weight jumped to 140lbs. I was right where I was supposed to be for my height and body type. Before I was actually to thin for my doctors liking. Thanks to birth control I was able to gain that weight no problem. It drove my Grandma crazy. She would constantly tell me she was concerned about my health because it was not healthy for me to be that big. Well that concern would actually be valid after my car accident. When I got into my car accident I messed up the nerves in my lower back and tore the muscle around my rotator cup. I had tendinitis and bursitis, with water pockets that were forming cysts around my entire right shoulder. I could not even pick up a pencil. It felt like it weighed 100lbs.

Their solution: a cortisone shot in between my shoulder and shoulder blade instead of doing surgery. I was only 20 so I agreed. I thought I was too young to be going through surgery so I gladly accepted. Little did I know that in less than 10 months I would be weighing over 210lbs. Talk about a blow to your self esteem, watching yourself gain all this weight and nothing you did seemed to reverse it. I have cried, I have been depressed, I have been angry. I have tried everything from a good workout routine and steady low carb/fat free diet to lose the weight. Well fast forward a few years down the road. I am now 26 years old, pregnant and at my last weigh in I had hit 230lbs
I cried. I know that I am gaining weight because I am pregnant. I know that that is going to happen throughout the pregnancy. Does it mean that I am happy about it? Not one bit. I know that in order to have a healthy baby this is a natural part of the process. I probably sound whiny and should get over it. Harder said than done, even my dad now lectures me on my weight. Although he doesn’t say much to me now that I am pregnant. It can be hard at times. I have cried over the lectures, I have had every test possible ran. I see a massage therapist to help me relax because my muscles are all in knots. I see a chiropractor to relieve my back, neck, and shoulder pain. It is only a brief relief from the pain I am in every day. Sometimes exercising helps, especially yoga. Other times I come home in more pain than when I went in the first place. My shoulder still swells if I over exert it, which happens a lot since it is my dominate arm.

The one thing I really hope is that after this baby is born that I can get even more serious about losing the weight that I had gained during and before the pregnancy. I hope that it will help relieve some of the pain I am in everyday and I will be able to enjoy my child all that much more for it. Not to mention I will be able to keep up with him/her a lot better too.

Wow, I wrote a lot. If you read all this, I thank you. Good night.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Being Thankful

This time of year I see so many posts about being thankful. Well this year I have a lot more to be thankful for than usual. Other than the usual, being thankful for a roof over my head, food in my belly, the best husband a girl could ask for, and for my friends and family who have stuck with me through thick and thin. I am very thankful that this year I get to experience one of the most beautiful things a woman can go through.

As I transition from maiden to mother I am thankful that I have this opportunity to give life to something so precious. During this holiday season I am still thankful for those friends and family who are supporting us during this time. Most of all I am thankful for my husband who is just as excited as I am that we are having this little one. Come Christmas time we should know what we are having and I will officially be able to say we are having a little Kaileb Connor or a Brionna Skip on the way.

I am also thankful that one of my best friends came up with the most awesome idea to reveal our little ones gender. We will be doing a gender reveal party. So we are going to have the technician write on a piece of paper what the baby is and put it in an envelope. Then provided the little one cooperates and things go as planned for my birthday we will be having a birthday dinner at Red Robin where we will reveal the gender to everyone. Hopefully Red Robin will let us bring in our own cake. My bestie will be making a gender neutral cake, well the frosting will be gender neutral, but the inside will be either pink or blue. So when we cut into the cake we will finally know what we are having, along with the rest of our friends and family.

So you see, there is a lot to be thankful for this year. Maybe more thankful this year than previous years for all the blessings I have received this year and will receive next year.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Magickal Monday's

This is going to be a short post. In January I am going to start doing Magickal Monday's. Those days will be the days that I talk about the different aspects of being Pagan/Wiccan in today’s world. I will be asking my other fellow Pagan/Wiccan’s out there to guest blog also with their ideas and views. The topics will cover things like ritual tools, Sabbats, clothing, general banter, parenting, family, friends, and lore. This is just some of the stuff that will be discussed. Keep an eye out for the first Monday in January for the kick off of Magickal Monday's!  

Sunday, November 20, 2011

The bump :)

14 weeks and the bump is growing!

Toddler Birthdays

So this was me today:

Yup, got to love a toddler birthday party. Oh I can't wait to know what I am having. Is this in my future or are a prince's birthday parties in my future?

Thursday, November 17, 2011

First Prenatal Visit and Bump Update

I went and saw Ginger today. For those who don’t know she is my midwife and homeopathic doctor. I had my first prenatal visit with her. Everything is going good. Baby is healthy and so is his/her mama. I do have to go see a chiropractor for my back after partially falling through that bridge a few weeks ago. We both want this lower back pain/pinched nerve to get fixed before I get too far along and can not do anything thing about it. Also with the fact that my stomach will be growing outwards it will only make my back pain worse.

While I was there I got to hear the baby’s heart beat. It went down a lot since the last visit. The last visit the baby’s heart beat was 170 bpm, this time however the baby’s heart beat was 156 bpm. I am told that that is normal as the baby starts to get bigger in the womb.  You can also read about that update here. So with out further ado here is my 13 week baby bump pic:

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

13 weeks and why I love Gamestop

I can’t believe how much time has passed already. In just one very short week it will be Thanksgiving. Wow, it seems like this year has totally blown past me. I am 13 weeks now. Depending on who you talk to I am either in the last week of my first trimester or the first week of my second trimester. Either way I am super excited. That means for the most part I am out of the danger zone. So far in my pregnancy I have been very tired. Completely exhausted to the point where at times I have slept the day away. Either that or I have vegged out on the couch, being a total couch potato.

At other times I have had these random burst of energy that I actually get out of the house and do something. Or I play catch up with the laundry or dishes.  Today however was one of those days where I was able to get out of the house. I took my car to get its oil changed at Sears. I had to wait an hour because everyone and their mother decided to get their oil changed today also. So I wandered around the mall for a little bit. What completely made my day today was Gamestop. I noticed a sign in their window saying they would purchase your old iPhone for store credit. I went in and inquired about it. Oh boy, and I ever glad that I did too! They offered me $120 in store credit for my AT&T 3GS. With that I was able to get hubby Battlefield 3 and myself and the hubster Skyrim.

Yeah I know total nerds right? Well you know it was not to bad since I didn’t have to pay a dime for either game AND they are the newest games out at the moment besides MW3. As I sit here typing this, the hubster is playing Battlefield 3.  Needless to say we were both pretty stoked about this. I got rid of my paper weight old phone and got two new games that will keep us occupied for months. Yay! Go me!

Anyway, if you are still reading this thanks for listening to me go on and on about this. You guys rock! Thanks for reading my blog!

Thursday, November 10, 2011


I love my growing family. Hubby and I spent the day being lazy. We played Dead Nation on the PS3 almost all day. Then we cuddled on the couch and watched American Horror Story and CSI. Now this soon to be mama is sleepy and content. Night all!

Monday, November 7, 2011

can it be?

Yesterday I posted about not having any energy (at least I think I did anyway). With one more week in the first trimester I have noticed that I am finally starting to get my second wind. I am wanting to do more things and not wanting to fall asleep so much. Although that could be just today. Who knows what will happen tomorrow.

I do hope that since next week I will officially be in the second trimester of my pregnancy that I will get that boost of energy that I have been reading so much about. Especially since I will be taking the very last class at CBC and will have my AA (fingers crossed).

I will need all the energy that I could possibly muster in order to takle that last math class. Then I am done for a while. Maybe. If I do decide to go back to school that is. Don't get wrong I really want to get a degree in something, but right now my life seems to be going in a more important direction than just getting a degree and working a 9 to 5 job.

That is ok with me. I do not mind putting my life on hold for my child. I do not even think my life will be on hold really. Just my career. My life will be in full swing and I know I will be happy and fine with everything that is about to come my way.

Before I bable on to much longer, I will end it there. Thanks for reading!

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Choosing a Midwife

After seeing all the midwives we could find in the Tri-Cities, we have finally found our midwife. The one we want to deliver our baby – Dr. Virginia Frazer. She runs Blue Heron Naturopathic Care in Pasco and is also a licensed midwife.

Matt and I both had a hard time choosing our midwife because we loved them all. What made Dr. Frazer stand out of the crowd was because she has her doctorate in naturopathic medicine [which I love]. She is a very caring lady. During our conversation where she was asking me the routine questions about my health I had mentioned that I was having some seriously bad dreams.

She had me explain to her what they were about. I told her it was just silly nightmares about zombies and surviving while trying to give birth. Although the one dream that concerned me the most was the miscarriage dream. I mentioned to her that I had just suffered a miscarriage right before getting pregnant and was concerned most about this dream.

So she brought me into her clinic room where she will be seeing me for future appointments and let my husband and I listen to the babies heart beat. I don’t know about Matt, but I know that just being able to hear that thump, thump, thump, going 170 BPM really reassured me that everything was okay.

After that we finished up the consult and Matt and I took the paper work home that we would sign almost a week later to confirm that she is now our midwife. My first prenatal appointment is on the 16th[which I am sure I will be talking about also].  I am very excited that we finally found our midwife. Everything seems a little more set in stone now and I for one and totally relieved about that. 

11.5 week baby bump =]

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Of The Cutest Variety

First off I hope you all enjoyed your Halloween holiday. Not many know that for us Pagans it is also our New Year. I do not usually make any New Year resolutions but I think this year I will make an acceptation. This year my only resolution is to have a happy and healthy pregnancy and birth.

I think this baby is going to help me stick to that resolution too. He/she already loves fruit and veggies. I can not seem to get enough of them! That and chocolate milk! Regular milk has lost its taste. It does not matter how fresh it is, it tastes sour to me. So I add some chocolate to it and it is perfect.

I have also noticed that I love sleeping on the couch. I am so uncomfortable in bed. I feel bad for Matt, he misses me sleeping with him. He is always asking me to come to bed and sleep. I try, but after 4 or 5 hours of tossing and turning I usually find my way back to the couch, where I fall asleep almost immediately. Has anyone else experienced something like this?

At 11 weeks I only foresee this getting worse and not better. My poor husband, I really hope he understands.

I have not taken any photos yet of my 11 week growing belly but I do have pictures from the previous weeks and some really cute photos of my nephews dressed up for Trick-Or-Treating last night:

6 weeks
7 weeks
8 weeks
9 weeks
10 weeks
Nephew John
Nephew Daniel
Godson Joshuah